"What I Hold, What Holds Me Back"

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What is pain? What is suffering?

It is the ache you feel, deep within your heart,

when your idea of reality is incongruent

with the actuality of your surroundings.

You expect the world to be a certain way,

and you realize that the world within you

is misaligned with the world around you.

It becomes a constant tug-of-war—

to either resist what’s out there

and protect all that is you,

or give up and give in,

becoming a copy of copies,

forsaking your world in the process.

I choose to look at the world

with my mind’s eye,

a gift that only I can wield.

I choose to seek subjective truths,

disregarding redundancies that pose as wisdom.

I choose to experience all that I can

without being ashamed of all that I am.

I choose to dream until I reach my finality,

and hope that my dreams will manifest.

And I choose to accept the pain of knowing

that none of it might ever manifest for me.

- Paradox

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